November 2012
5 posts
November 19, 2012 (3:09 AM)
A lot has changed lately. But change is good, right?
I quit IHOP. The hours sucked and the pay was shitty. Tomorrow I have plans and for some reason I wrote them down thinking that would help me actually follow through with them. We shall see…
I’m going to go pick up my last check from work (which will probably be a big, fat $40). Then I plan on taking Olivia to the library and...
“Let no one think of me that I am humble or weak or passive; let them understand...”
– Medea (via fuckyeahgreatplays)
“I still catch myself feeling sad about things that don’t matter anymore.”
– Kurt Vonnegut (via nakedandreckless)
Prayer For a Daughter. In love with this.
“First, Lord: No tattoos. May neither Chinese symbol for truth nor Winnie-the-Pooh holding the FSU logo stain her tender haunches.
May she be Beautiful but not Damaged, for it’s the Damage that draws the creepy soccer coach’s eye, not the Beauty.
When the Crystal Meth is offered, may she remember the parents who cut her grapes in half And stick with Beer.
Guide her, protect her when...
October 2012
3 posts
Today Zach dropped Olivia around 10:30 pm. I answered the door. Olivia’s first question was “Where’s GiGi?!” and I told her she was in her bed. She gave Zach a hug and a kiss and ran downstairs. It was just me and Zach standing there. That’s when I realized how awkward we are around each other now. We can’t even make eye contact, it’s very strange. We...
Beautiful words. Twenty Miles - Deer Tick
Raindrops like bullets on my fragile skin. And insecurities I’ve had are creeping within. Now I’m 20 miles outside of the place that you live. And I need one more chance now that time’s running thin.
Well you are the things that make up my dreams. And I’ve spent every dime that jingled my jeans. I deserve every stone that’s thrown out at me. And I think of your...
September 2012
20 posts
I just set down to relax in the bath and the water was scolding on my feet. I was outside, barefoot, so that didn’t help my case. I miss being a free teenager with no worries. Actually, I don’t miss it because I never had that. I suppose I just wish I knew what it was like. I’ve been a mother since I was 14. That sentence was very strange to type. Honestly, I have so much going...
Thoughts from an android. 9-23-12
I feel like I haven’t collected my thoughts on here in forever! It’s 11:40 pm and I’m laying down in my cozy bed. It’s been a long weekend. Friday I worked from 6pm until 5am, but I made $140 in tips so I’d say it was worth it. After, I got off I went over to Austin’s. I wasn’t in a very good mood. We didn’t go to bed until the sun came up,...
“People say, ‘I’m going to sleep now,’ as if it were nothing. But it’s really a bizarre activity. ‘For the next several hours, while the sun is gone, I’m going to become unconscious, temporarily losing command over everything I know and understand. When the sun returns, I will resume my life.’
If you didn’t know what sleep was, and you had only...
Thoughts from an android. 9-18-12
It’s 11:50 pm and I really should be asleep right now. I have to be up by 9 to take a drug test. Blahhhh. I hate being on probation. Only 30 more days left! Anyway, I want to write about a boy. I love him, but I’m not sure if I want to. Our relationship is extremely complicated. We’ve known each other for almost 3 years, and a majority of the time he’s been in...
Thoughts from an android. 9-18-12
It’s 2:23 am and I would like to bring the topic up of how people lie about pointless things. This happens way too often. For example, someone texted me and said “It was good to see you tonight.” and, of course, I replied “It was good seeing you too!”. It’s like I’m compelled to say it. Seeing him was not good, nor was it bad. It did not impact my day in...
September 17, 2012
I’ve tried keeping a journal many times, but I just can’t seem to stick with it. Hopefully using my cell phone, which I always have with me, will somehow urge me to collect my thoughts more often.
I’m about to leave for a long night of work. I’m supposed to be there at 5:00 pm and it is now 4:04 pm. I’m more than likely going to end up cutting it close....
August 2012
1 post
